Dibs


I remember when you first came here,
Made your intentions quite clear,
with my best friend.  
Like you claimed him.
Pulled the wounded from our herd,
fell in love around the fifteenth word.
I can't blame you,
'cause I did too.
Kinda cruel yet kinda sweet,
how you swept him under your feet.
You were subtle,
like a blowjob.

At least you have good taste.

And I don't mean to be mean,
except when its a means to an end,
and I can't sit by and watch,
when you're fuckin' with my friend.
And I know that love can hurt,
and if it does you'll get it worse,
and it's nothing personal, but,
you see, I loved him first.

I remember when he first gave up,
drank so much he threw up into his cup
and at first, it was funny.
All those nights he stayed home and cried,
in spite of all the things we tried
to help him.  We did nothing.
And you did what we could not,
you made him forget the love he lost,
and for that, I guess we owe you.

I think you took too much.

And I don't mean to be mean,
except when its a means to an end,
and I'd just live and let live,
if you'd give us back our friend.
And I know that love takes time,
you could have the weekdays, that'd be fine.
Just don't take him all away, 'cause,
you see he once was mine.

And I know that people change.
I know if you love them, you'll let them.
And I know you're not to blame.
This would have happened with or without you.

And if he and I have grown apart,
maybe thats my own damn fault.
I've been distant for a while now.
And if he lets you silence his voice,
hold him back, well, that's his choice.
I should grow up and respect that.
But you know what I'm most jealous of?
He and I never did make love.
Except that one time.
That we don't talk about.

I'm just fucking with you now.

And I don't mean to be mean,
except when its a means to an end,
and though we never have been gay,
he's more my brother than my friend.
And I have lost friends before,
not to sickness, drugs, or war.
Just the passing of each day,
'til I don't know them anymore.

I hate to interrupt your kiss,
tell your boyfriend that he's missed.
Tell your boyfriend I wrote this,
and that I'm no longer pissed.